clarification

I wanted to clarify something in my last post -- at the end there when I said my eyes were off the Savior...

I want to expounded that a bit more - but I'm going to go "on my noodle" for a bit as I expound.

Part of my bible reading as of late has been in 1^st and 2^nd Kings.  I found myself, after reading story after story, quickly judging – don’t these kings ever learn!!! Each of them doing worse than their father before them – each leading Israel into sin, most in worship of other gods, each dying a horrible death because of it – after all that God has done for them and how God has so faithfully provided for them… (yep -- WARNING: pride before the fall coming up...)

In my prayer time I have been asking God how I can apply what He is saying in these verses to me.  At first I wasn’t really seeing how they applied to me directly, but then the spirit opened my eyes…
Sure I don’t make graven images of gold and wood and bow before them and worship them blatantly instead of God or blatantly make others around me worship false gods -- but in my weariness my eyes have been drifting off my Savior and into trying to find peace and security in and from my hardships and problems in other people.  Obviously it has not been a conscious thought process (our hearts are so deceiving that way sometimes) - but looking back I think my idolatress heart was hoping something tangible here will make me feel more secure because I can see it and touch it.

Which brings me to that comment: God is so faithful to not let me be satisfied for a moment with that which isn’t Him.  I was making an unrealistic expectation on someone else by looking to them instead of God for peace in the moment.  The failure at the moment wasn't that someone didn't give me the "correct" answer I was looking for and therefore caused "no air" - the failure was mine that I took my eyes off of my Savior and when the idolatress thought didn't bring me peace the panic that ensued was "definitely no air".